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Depression

 It’s hard fighting it every breaking day. Is it jealousy or is it greed or is it me not seeing myself where I want to be?. Many a time I’m drawn to taking my own life but when I think about the little set of people that’ll be hurt even though just for a short period I fight the feeling off just to wake up to it the next day😪. Yes everyone has problems and how do deal with them at times it feels like the solutions are adding more problems😂. To the world I’m this happy carefree child but am I really?. 


Being too trusting can be an issue you know and that alone magnifies the feeling of depression when things go south. I may act all strong and rigid but deep down I’m just a child that is lost 😔.

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