Realities of life

My heart yearns for what it doesn’t know it seeks,  Day In and out it feels like I be missing something but I’ve got no idea what,  Am I happy? Am I sad?  Do people love me? Most importantly......do I love myself? Where exactly have I gone wrong? Is there something I’m missing? These questions plagues daily,  Who can I tell that wouldn’t judge me, Who can I trust with these information No one but myself. Built up a mechanism that in my mind prevents me from getting hurt,  Looking strong to the world but deep down I’m gasping for air. Self worth is to be learnt before anything else.

Unspoken words-2 I begin hating myself for a decision  drowning and sinking deep I’m at the verge of being lost lost for good? that I don’t know It has become a daily routine  the self loathe the anger the invading thoughts  being as destructive as ever Tempted each time to take the life then I remember I ain’t the giver of life and I tell myself my maker wouldn’t be so pleased Everyday has become a struggle  but I believe we go scale through, The anthem ringing everyday  “WE MOVE, GOD NO GO SHAME US “

I be losing it so bad it has become a daily routine  When this phase will pass I’m yearning to know How it’ll pass I’m willing to find out  What it takes I’m willing to know I’ve not drowned in a long time  Seems why I forgot the feel  Saying to search the ends of the earth would be near impossible  Tend to make little shit matter and kill myself with the thought of it Taking a chill pill would be nice but I’ve forgotten what that feels like or even how to Trying these days to find sanity in the WORD but for a moment and then it’s gone because my soul has got a mind of its own I continue where I left off It’s like all these consuming thoughts have become my shadow  Hiding from it is close to impossible  Tears have become a daily companion then when that’s done I try to hide it with a    smile so fake I try to tell myself it’s real I use my own hand and mind to destroy things so good and then begin the loathe...

Not an update! Hey guys, i haven't really posted stuff lately cause my mind has been preoccupied with a lot of stuff lately but i'm back now. Imma get my head in the game and i would really appreciate feedback from you guys. I also hope that everyone is keeping safe and sane this period, trust me i know it's really hard and almost impossible to stay indoors all the time get a hobby. Read that book you've been avoiding, do that dance video you've been procastinating to do, sing that song, play board games(I'm doing that), the coco of the matter is get creative. STAY SAFE.         PS: I LOVE YOU

                                                                        “Nothing ever happens the way you want it to so rather than sulking or acting like the world is coming to an end get up and do some work.” But all he does is groan. Chapter 1 The city of Los Angeles had woken up to its hustle and bustle of the day at 5:00am. Man has work to survive somewhere in this big city there 17 year old Danielle lived at least 50km away from her parents. Danielle: I woke up to the beeping sound of my alarm clock realizing its Monday by heart chatters into a million pieces. Though I’m not a morning person I get up with a smile on my...

How often do you talk to people and what kind of impact do your words leave on them? This is one thing that people hardly ever seem to take note of, simply because the society doesn't have time anymore caring about what's being said, everyone is only caring about what's trending not caring about how the other party feels about it. A persons word can either impact negatively or positively, this is were a blunt person tends to have issues because he\she says it the way they feel it; to them it may not be a problem cause they've let it out and that's fine but those words you've said has it actually done its job of correction or it has just made the person feel bad about him\her self.   Words influence others and build relationships at work and personally. They can tear down relationships. Simply put, language holds massive, colossal power to manifest change, whether it’s good or bad.  Marcus Aurelius, the Roman Emperor from 161 to 180 AD, considered to be ...

Everyone has that moment where he or she has felt so alone and out of place, majorly because you tend to place too much value on what didn't need that much attention. Myself as an example, i meet new people and interact (which is something i hardly ever do) then boom in my mind I've got new friends that would be my ride or die and i begin playing the friend role; at this point in my mind, i have believed that if i can make myself uncomfortable for you then you can do the same for me but is that really how it works?, how easily do you trust people and what result do you get out of it. According to the Cambridge dictionary, TRUST is defined as to  believe  that someone is good and  honest  and will not  harm  you, or that something is  safe  and  reliable : Quick question,how many of them  you call 'FRIENDS' can you proudly say in your time of need they wouldn't loose guard you? this is one question i have learnt to ask myself e...

Most people hardly show emotions as to when they've been hurt by a statement, an action or even a reaction; simply because no one wants to show weakness to the other but deep down the heart is full of pain. People tend to react to pain felt by denial others by dealing with it and some by acting like they do not care,in my personal opinion, it's better to deal with it so to get it over and done with. For an individual to show how pained he is to me to me is strong because it being done with you create more room in your mind for other useful things. Someone once told me, "the human brain capacity is too little to be occupied with nonsense, but large enough to occupy mind blowing things", at the point this statement was made i didn't quite understand it till I began letting off some steam. it doesn't necessarily have to be at the moment but letting it out to the individual that wronged you and not a third party; reasons because the third party may just add more e...